Shaking off the funk: Ashley we are not a princess

Shaking off the funk: Ashley we are not a princess

I’ve concluded that the Vtine (theBpum as you know me) is a spoiled, fortunate, truly privileged young whiner!  Yes, it is true, I am one of those people who is so blessed, so favored, that when things don’t go exactly my way I crumble.  “That sounds completely insane right”, I ask with my legs crossed as I sit at my comfy kitchen table.  Drinking my $1.06 Arabian bean, partially burnt (I swear) Mcdonald’s coffee, complemented with six teaspoons of sugar and three Coffee Mate original creamers.    Being favored and loved deeply is a blessing and a curse!  It has created a little Frankenstein and the more I am favored, the more the little monster inside me feeds and grows bigger (clearly Halloween is still on the brain). [...]

And today, I visited a small, local printing company

And today, I visited a small, local printing company

Today my work led to me traveling a bit, here in Coban with my boss.  I enjoy these moments because I get to explore parts of Coban that I wouldn’t alone.  Whenever my boss is here, I notice places and things I overlook when I’m alone.  I can let my guard down slightly. Take in my surroundings, instead of walking around more paranoid than I would like to admit. We made a few stops as we entered and exited the 10 passenger shuttle that became overtaken with supplies for the hotel.  Our last stop for the day, a small printing company. [...]

OH HAPPY DAY

OH HAPPY DAY

As I wake up and start my normal “routine” (read my last post if you want to know what this fascinating process is like) I can’t help but to stop smiling because shawty is happy (translation: Ashley Valentine feels happy and is in a happy place).  Prior to departing the US in mid June I shared with my therapist how happy I was at that time, and how I was nervous that the gleeful spirit I housed would dwindle. I was overcome with thoughts that I could be back in my self-fed and created sunken place.  It’s been more than 2 months and although I do have bad days; everything doesn’t always go my way and of course I get lonely; I am overall still happy. [...]

Monday Motivation

Monday Motivation

Today as I wasted a guilty amount of hours scrolling aimlessly between Instagram and Facebook watching pastry chefs cut through the center of cupcakes and fill them with sprinkles, popular clips from America’s Got Talent that moved me to tears, and enough weave installs to earn a cosmetology license; I realized that I am my biggest distraction [...]

Rat on top of the cage yelling “REVOLUTION” update

Rat on top of the cage yelling “REVOLUTION” update

I’ve always heard people say, “ask and you shall receive”.  But I only really thought that applied to Pastors on Sunday mornings.  Or during revivals, retreats, musicals, church anniversaries, pastor and wife anniversaries, scholarship drives, capital campaign fundraisers and at funerals.  Well maybe not funerals but you can’t say I’m lying about all of the [...]